So, I miss my blog's original header photo like NOBODY'S BUSINESS, but I have spent countless hours searching the interwebs for it, for a few years now actually. To no avail. That dude packed up his website, blogger templates and photos, and hit the road. Totally off the grid. Not even cached sites will get me a good copy of it to use.
Even people who used his stuff have blank headers like I did - theirs disappeared too. Sadness. That photo perfectly depicted me and my inner life. But alas.
I found this one. It will do for now.
MOVING ON. (Lord knows I have expended enought energy and headspace trying to find that f*ing photo of that girl in headphones, good lord. Any readers who have been with me since the beginning and fall across that image in this lifetime, do let me know)
I have a bazillion posts in Draft mode from a decade ago through to just a year and a half ago. A DECADE Y'ALL.
I look at them upon occasion and think dammitall, why didn't we just hit Publish while the getting was good instead of thinking they had to be 'just right' first?
I think frequently about blogging when I have stuff to sort through - which is ALWAYS, but in recent months it's moreso.
I have a huge craving to write when I need to make sense of my world turned upside down (see: this entire blog in 2006-7)
Lately I realized that my long conversations with friends on the phone via texting and Kik is where all my extensive thinking, writing, and navel-gazing has taken place in the last year or more.
So.
Every time I considered blogging all this business, which was often, I thought well shit, I've already typed all this out once ffs, I don't wanna reinvent the wheel.
And then it hit me (thwack!) - since I have invested hours upon f*ing HOURS in text conversations, why not just screenshot them, crop out the identifying stuff, and post those?
It may or may not work, but imma give it a shot. What the hell. I'm a pro at both spectacular failures and fantastic success at times. We'll just see what happens.
CAVEAT - and hear me on this - I'm going to post by date as much as possible and it may be all wibbly wobbly timey wimey out of order while I build the story. So it may not make sense for a hot minute. But if I keep them all in eternal Draft Mode, we'll be at 2028 with me again saying oh look at all these posts saved as drafts I shoulda published. And I don't want that to be us y'all. Not again.
Get ready. There's a lot going on.
So. Let's try it.
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Oh and PS:
Hello, People who know me in real life and still creep my blog. Yes I see you.
The Interwebs are this cool technology that show me your stalkery ways.
Now here's the deal - I know you. You know me. I'm still gonna be honest about my life's Awesome as well as its Angst. I made that announcement over 10 years ago on this blog - I'm completely Honest on this site or we're done here. Which is why it was anonymous in the first place.
So, Honest it is. And there's a lot going on. I have lived on all sides of all fences. You still wanna dance with joy over my sorrows, that's your business. Keep on judging me iff'n you'd like to, there's quite a lot on the menu for you in that area. Bon appetit.
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